Happy New Year everyone! Even though I blogged just a little in 2015, I had a very full and busy year! To refresh your memory, I chose FEARLESS as my One Little Word for the year.
And I think I did a pretty fantastic job of living this motto! Examples:
Starting right off in January (and then a second time in April) I completed an indoor triathlon! Yes! ME! It was a huge challenge and accomplishment for me. And I was freaking terrified. But I didn’t let the fear win.
I’m not sure how detailed I’ve been about my anxiety and depression here. I know I wrote a post when I got to my breaking point. And when I decided to get better. In the short-term, I feel like my medication saved me. Or at least put the brakes on a bad news out of control brain. I’m still a work in progress. And I’m going to try to incorporate other methods to take care of myself in 2016. But more on that tomorrow.
In March I did something that I never thought would happen in a million years. I joined the direct sales ranks with Thirty-One Gifts. After being a manager at a shoe store for 5 years, I swore up and down that I was done with sales. Whelp. Look at me now. I absolutely love everything about Thirty-One and I love working for them. I’m not going to mention it too much here. I’m not trying to sell to you. If you want to buy from me, I will encourage that! But since it’s a big part of my life now, I will be mentioning it here. Just like any other job. But an awesome one.
I took a bigger leap in July, when I attended Thirty-One’s national conference in Denver. It was so fun and so scary to be doing something so new and different. But I’m so glad I did it. It was an amazing weekend with some crazy fun ladies!
I tried to force others to be more fearless too. Mostly Avery. But she’s a kid, so that comes pretty easy to her. We did have a couple of stand out experiences this last fall.
I somehow convinced her to ride a ferris wheel with me. I think we both had smiles plastered on our faces the whole time.
And then she started preschool. And my fearlessness went out the window and my anxiety pushed through. Man that was a hard day. But seeing her excitement, and watching her play with the other kids, and then she would not stop talking about it after, made me relax. Just a little.
She still loves it and talks about it all the time. Winter break has been rough over here. She is itching to get back.
November was the most challenging month for my fearlessness. Long story short (bad blogger) Avery was admitted to the Children’s Hospital for several days. The doctors ran every test they could think of, and we couldn’t figure out what was wrong. Avery was in mostly good spirits. But it’s hard to explain to a 3-year-old why we can’t go home. And why she has to get medicine and so many shots. The unlimited TV time she got was very helpful in keeping her pacified.
I was amazed that I only cried twice the whole time we were there. I think part of my brain shut off. Which was fine. I felt so comforted by the staff at the hospital and I knew they were there for us, wanting to get my girl better.
And magically (seriously) she got better. And we went home. And still didn’t have many answers.
Aaahhh! I really don’t want to end this on a depressing note. So here it is: As many challenges as 2015 threw at my family, we didn’t give up. We didn’t let anything take us down.
We had so many fun adventures. So many laughs, hugs, and kisses. So much love. And that’s how I’ll remember 2015, fearless.